My 2nd Year Living in Italy

Two years have gone so fast! I still can't believe that I've been living here in Italy for that long. Did I ever think of living here before? No, not at all. 😅 A few days before the 2nd year mark arrived, I saw a post of me on Facebook - it was the day that I left for Italy. When I saw that post, I started crying because I clearly remembered how I felt that day. 😢 Gosh, I've become so emotional ever since I arrived here! 😆 I felt so heavy that day and I remembered that there was a small part of me that didn't want to leave because I knew that things would change. My life would change. At that time, I really wasn't ready for that. Especially doing it all alone. 

with my classmate from Italian class, Ishuan

I did another post on my first year here. It was super fun and easy on the first half but on the other half, it was difficult and kind of lonely. Right after my first year, I was slowly gaining friends, had a part-time job, continued my internship, enrolled myself to an Italian school to learn Italian seriously, made new friends, and so on. Things were really getting better! Until Covid-19 happened and we were on lockdown. Everything stopped, everything changed. It was really hard because there was no manual on what to do in that weird situation. I have to say that experience was really draining and depressing. It was really difficult both mentally and emotionally. I had no idea where to begin because I became really exhausted and uninspired. The thought of making another plan was just tiring and it felt useless.

Ostuni

Summer came and things were getting better. I think it's also because of the weather. It reminded me of home. I went on a vacation to the south and it was beautiful. That vacation really reminded me why I decided to stay and why I am here. I needed that break. I'm glad I was able to recharge myself and clear my head. What I learned from this global crisis is that to make things work, you have to be resilient. Also, it's okay not to be okay (no, I haven't watched this series but maybe I'll watch it soon.)

Did things get better in the 2nd year compared to the first year? Hell no! My nightmare (still dealing with the documents etc.) is still on going and this greatly affects my life here. All of my moves are limited. However, I think I have reached another level of getting-yourself-together-no-matter-what mentality. That alone, I am proud of. 😌 I still do have the feeling of loneliness and heartbreaks from my friends leaving me here. I think it's one of the cons of living here in Florence. You will meet amazing people but they will eventually leave you. So right now, every time I meet someone, I always ask them how long they are going to stay here so that I can prepare myself! 😂 

Giardino dell'Orticoltura

I know there are some people who think that I am very lucky. Well, I am. I know I am. I am very grateful! It's just that I miss my friends, my family, and my home. I haven't been home for 2 years now and I still don't know when will I ever have the chance to visit them. Especially with the situation right now. I can't imagine how happy I would be if I will finally be able to visit them! I guess I'll just have to wait for everything to be better. Hopefully soon.

 

Ostuni

For now, things are still uncertain but at least I am comfortable. I am here and I am okay. 

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